notes

first of all...*lap2 sikit habuk2 kat blog ni*
nasib baik belum bersawang ya... he he

life has been doing normal, if it's not extra taxing at times
yet that is pretty normal too
running a private Ministry of Home Affair aint small job i telllll cha
the other day, on my wall at fb, a fren mentioned about being a housewife
about how she wished that she could retire her job for being at home fulltime
(guess what, i used to have that kinda escapism day dream most of time, especially when boss keeps bossing around or not-a-boss keeps bugging for nonsense)

i totally understand her feeling
i almost wanted to comment : yup! listen to ur heart! follow your dream
yet i wrote : be careful of what u wish...unless if u have a very good helper, a very handsome driver, and a wealthy generous husband. otherwise being a fulltime housewife is very tiring, but very very satisfying.

i really meant that.

of cos ones couldn't (or almost impossible) to live in her every dream, but we can make it somewhat closer.

i know a wife who is doing very well with her high-paid job, catching up planes for business trip, leaving behind her family for most of time, exhausting her waking hours for datelines.
i'm sure she's doing that for reasons, but maybe not fun.

i know another wife who dedicates her days and nites for her family. a big number of them. managing all without a helper tho i think she deserves one. but she carries it all from time to time.
i'm sure she's doing that for reasons, and maybe she finds some fun.

and i also know another wife, who i think she's not quite sure what she really wants. or maybe if she does, she seems not leading to the correct path.

i think, life offers some highways and junctions. it's never too late to change lane or u-turn, whenever if necessary.

somehow this entry reminds me of today's kuliah dhuha i attended. (i'm going to make a new label, of lecture notes for my future reference)

Dari Ibnu Umar radhiallahu 'anhuma, katanya : "Saya mendengar Rasulullah saw bersabda:
"Semua orang dari engkau sekalian itu adalah penggembala dan semuanya saja akan ditanya tentang penggembalaannya. Seorang imam-pemimpin-adalah penggembala dan akan ditanya tentang penggembalaannya. Seorang lelaki adalah penggembala dalam keluarganya dan akan ditanya tentang penggembalaannya, seorang isteri adalah penggembala di rumah suaminya dan akan ditanya tentang penggembalaannya. Seorang khadam/pekerja juga penggembala dalam harta tuannya dan akan ditanya tentang penggembalaannya. Maka semua orang dari engkau sekalian itu adalah penggembala dan akan ditanya tentang penggembalaannya" (Muttafaq 'alaih)

coti...

tak coti...

tis (past) week of "school break"
but we not observed so
Jr.' school open just as normal
so my routine went on just as normal
but with extra driving hours because we had therapy session wit Teacher Foo, plus one replacement session
penat la mak
(ish..tak baik mengeluh pasal duty utk family kan? Astaghfirullahal'aziim)

so tht past "school break" we stayed at home
no break and no holiday
mcm bosan pun ada

and everytime i mention/heard about "school"
jantung sure berdegup extra beat sikit
mana nak antar si teruna next year?
ge ge ge...

he's turnin seven next year yo!
and tis mommy havent decided abt his primary school yo!
public or private yo!
and above all, which school that suits his condition AND willing to accept enrollment at nearly last minute yo!

ke ke ke
tis mommy mmg kepala last minute sebenarnya
dari muda sampai ke kurang muda skrg
dari zaman uni, mmg muka last minute pulun study
heh

how now?


jom kita bermeditasi dulu.
#p.s : bestnya kalau pinggangku ramping mcm tu, jeles mak dara

ombak besar

finally i write something about the global hit news

i share and extend my concern to my Mr.
he seemed not much affected, emotionally
but deep inside her manly heart, i dont really know

March Eleven, Two Thousand Eleven
world nation were shocked by the earthquake, scaled up to 8.9 richter
and shortly followed by tsunami
the big wave
huge
up to 20 metres

subhanaallah
We seek refuge in You
The Almighty

we watched streaming news on NHK
from the day 1 till now
there were no other but updates about the disaster since then

heart wrenching

but
that reminds me
how small and weak
we people, us human

Innalillahi wa inna ilaihi raaji'un

(i will surely hit this link for my reference later)

jatuh cinta

(again)



errm...need i say more?

lost

after 28 days now
after we lost her
i still cannot write about her
about days before
about days later
about feelings
about hope
or about delusions
about dreams

i avoid her photos
bcos i have her clearer pictures, in my mind most of time

our last talk
our last moments
and even our past arguments

i think i just better not write anything of them
maybe not now
not here, and neither at my other network space

after 28 days now
i just realised
i lost my kilos
some three of them

i'm missing my mom
more than i ever imagined

ofis

terasa seperti di alam peng-ofis-an (sp?) semula
seolah hampir sempurna kelengkapannya

ada new phone, cordless lagi. terima kasih TM diatas sumbangan
(berserta pakej internet yg semakin mahal rupanya)
ada new printer, black beauty gitu.
(walaupun saya agak curiga, mungkin printer lama masih boleh diguna, kalau saya sedikit rajin menggodek-godek cartridge yg mungkin sangkut. tapi RM119 RM199 untuk canon brand new, saya relakan saja)
ada air freshener lama, yg masih boleh dipakai.
ada photo frame gambar anak kesayangan.

sudah hampir lengkap, dan selesa.
cuma tahap kerajinan yg perlu dipertingkatkan.

ganbatte!

bukan gambar sebenar

i tetap suka yg ni. my very own SOHO bilik CSI